I wanted a clear direction, a decision tree with two branches: either, or, one, zero, yes, no, if, then. I wished for the reliability of the laws of nature. But I'm a mess. And that doesn't work. How can you be that, ONE piece of dirt? Is he acting as a soloist? Or are we talking about an empty crowd? It is precisely the contradiction, it seems, the a-linear, the simultaneity of the either and the or, that comes closest to the circumstance that we commonly refer to as life. For if we look at the various biographies in history and their interweaving with one another, they arouse our curiosity first and foremost in their irregularity. Beyond the sensible, because the sensible sometimes seems unattainable, and beyond moral or other judgments, we perhaps succeed - in simple contemplation - in gaining a small understanding of the inconsistency of life. I am a mess. I long for a clear direction. I am filth. I know it doesn't exist.

Concept: Stefanie Reinsperger, Akin Isletme
Director: Akin Isletme
Assistant director: Zoé Miray-Su Hamdemir
Camera & editing: Bahadir Hamdemir
Music / sound design: Bendrik Grossterlinden, Matthias Schubert
With: Stefanie Reinsperger, Wolfgang Michael, Julian Keck
Publishing rights: © Suhrkamp Verlag Berlin / Bertolt-Brecht-Erben, Rowohlt Verlag

A production of the Brechtfestival Augsburg 2021

© Hamdemir / Isletme

Press reviews
"In addition to Brecht's texts, Reinsperger has also edited some of Steffin's works, who was - as Hanns Eisler once described her - "Brecht's most valuable collaborator". This includes the eponymous "Ich bin ein Dreck", in which Steffin spits out her despair and exhaustion. At least that's how Reinsperger translates it in her video: a tough monologue, one that is reminiscent of the theater stage and is so forcefully realized that it also works digitally."
- Süddeutsche Zeitung, 24.02.2021